Rewa先生の言葉

私はある出来事に心を痛めていたことがあって、レッスン中に笑顔がなかったことがありました。 その時何があったのか話してみてと言われて、躊躇したけれどゆっくり話しました。　良い先生は良いメンターでもあると強く思った日でした。 こんなことを話してくれました。 「健全な競争だけするべきです。いいですね、それは精神的に健康で、よく練習して、よく歌い、懸命に努力する。それが健全な競争です。そうではないところからは離れましょう。 私はそう感じます。だから悲しまないでください。でも頑張ってください。そして、自分自身をすごく信じてください。というのは、あなたはたくさんリヤズ（練習）するし、マンシェ（心）から音楽を愛しているし、スワラとタールとラーガを愛しているから。それがあなたの奇跡です。 自分自身に自信を持ってください。私はいつもあなたのそばにいます。いつもです。あなたが上手に歌ったとき、あなたが上手に演奏したとき、観客はみんな、あなたのことを賞賛するでしょ？でも、私は少し感じるのです。嫉妬という言葉は適切ではないけれど、他の人たちも自分のパフォーマンスがとても良くて、賞賛されたいと思っているのです。だから時々あなたを打ちのめしたくなります。でも、忘れないでください。あなたはとても上手に歌っています。あなたは努力家です。とてもとても素晴らしいのです。いいですか？あなたは優しいし、あなたは本当に心の美しい人です。あなたの心、あなたの感情はとても純粋で、いつもそのことを思い出してください。 私はいつも他の生徒にも言っています。「ミキさんを見てください。彼女は素晴らしい生徒です。努力家で、インド古典音楽をとても愛しています。」だから、常に心にとめてください。 もし伴奏者がいなくても私が連れてくるから。彼はとても上手に伴奏してくれる。私がマネージします。正しいでしょう？私は知っています。 あなたが成功の道を歩んでいるのをよく知っています。 あなたは強い人です。私たちはスーパウーマンです。だから、どんなことがあっても動揺しないでください。どんな状況にも、何かしらの「ウパイ（方法、対策）」があります。 私はいつも思っています。「すべての扉が閉じても、必ず一つは開いている」と。だから動揺しないで、悲しまないで。あなたは本当に素晴らしく歌っていると私は思います。 あなたの笑顔は素敵です、いつも笑っていてください。あなたが「何があったのか」メッセージしてくれました。 それについて動揺する必要はありません。なぜならそれはあなたが「成功の物語の道を歩んでいる」証拠だからです。」 Sometimes, people in a community feel insecure or afraid of change. They might see someone new—especially someone talented or with different connections—and feel threatened. They worry they will lose their position or respect, so they try to keep control by excluding others. Sometimes, jealousy or a desire to be the best can make people act unkindly. But their actions say more about their own fears and weaknesses than about you. You did nothing wrong. You tried to join and share, but they were not open or fair. I already asked them directly. They couldn't answer anything. Instead, they blamed me, and later, when I met her at another event, she saw me and ran away. Normally, I think she should have apologized for what happened, but instead, she ran away and even told her acquaintances that I was avoiding her. I heard this from someone at another store. Then, that person from the other store blamed me and said I was wrong. Also, when I met Sn at another event and said hello, she ignored me. The first incident happened to me 15 years ago. I was sexually harassed by a teacher, a male teacher. He was an old man and he said things to me every time, such as, "Let me touch your breast," "Let me sleep with you on my lap," and so on. He said these things to me again and again. Eventually, I quit learning from him. Then there was another teacher who was really vulgar. He said things like "Die," "F***," and many other dirty words to me. He showered me with disgusting words. Another person, a tabla player So, also power harassed me. For three or four hours, he would call me at midnight and say things like, "You have no motivation," "No one supports you," and so on. He kept talking for a long time. Because of this, I quit and just left the phone on speaker while I went to the toilet or did something else. When I came back to the phone, he was still talking. I think he is sick. It was really a scam. Then there was another person who made me feel very depressed. It happened last year, on February 1st. This very old senior sister, Guru Behen, who is a senior in the same group, tried to bully me without letting me know. But it was pure bullying. What she did was organize an event and ask me to participate, along with Sn, who is also an old senior and a tabla player. The previous year, I joined the same event, but that time, sn did not play. She stopped and did not play with me during the performance. I don't know what happened. The rehearsal was fine, but during the actual performance, she did not play and said she got confused. She also suddenly got angry with me during the performance for no clear reason. I felt she was not professional at all. I told her that I was scared to play with Sn, so I would only perform for a short time. I said I would try to play for only 20 minutes at the event. One week before the event, Sn posted on Instagram for esraj. I was really surprised. She posted that only the other performer, without me, would perform together. She also posted a video. It was clear that she was excluding me. She wrote that my esRa performance would be solo. I was shocked, so I called the organizer to ask why I was only doing a solo performance. She said there was some misunderstanding. Even when I called her, she only said she was on the train and did not call me back. I asked her to correct S's post, but she never did. The post is still there. I think this was really terrible bullying. So I refused to join the event and told her. Then suddenly she called me. I think she did not expect me to refuse to participate. She probably thought I would still perform even if I was excluded.